November 7, 2023

 I started Transcendental Meditation this past week and I am still trying to get it right. I keep getting interrupted by my thoughts and think I should be done earlier than I should be. This is all part of the process but it is strange how we always aim for perfection. We do not want to mess anything up and want the perfect journey, yet there is no perfect journey. No one just sky rockets to the top that is not what progress looks like.

That is one of the biggest things I am struggling with right now is the fact that I need to deal with setbacks and I need to get my old self back. I do not need to doubt myself or question why I am doing something, I just need to go out and do it. I need to have it be a goal I am willing to sacrifice for.

One thing I have tried to stop living by is to do what makes you happy, because happiness is not always the goal, progress is. I am happy when I see that I am doing better and improving. Yet if I aim for happiness all I will do is focus on what is in the moment, not the long term.